I'm a Moderately Conservative Democratic Socailist I always look forward to the easier times; thats what things look like to me. Not better, not happier, just easier and more peaceful. What this wonderful trip home has taught me is that easier does not exist, and that great things are in part figments of my imagination, and part exagerated reality. I'm not a pessimist, I'm not a hater, I actually look for the good in all things, but in the words of a good friend, we romanticize life and it just makes it all the much harder.
Lots of things to learn and share and for a note to self, here is what not to forget, ever.
Life is precious; things die, relationships die, people die, pets die. Its going to hurt but don't stop loving out of fear
Fight with love, laugh with rage (as scratched delicately on the bathroom stall door at the Reel Big Fish concert)
Home isn't real, but family and friends are. Don't worry so much about the transition, just enjoy what you know completes you
Find depth and joy in yourself and let others contribute, not create the wealth
Movies, long drives, lunches alone, good long cuddles, talks and walks, the Oregon coast, animals and art makes life worth it
Don't forget where you come from
Stop searching for yourself and start creating yourself
You have two comfy beds; use them
Vanity will kill you so just....right
Finally, it will all even out somehow and when you look at someone near you and think how easy they have it, just remember that they have struggles different from yours but just as hard, and their highs, ditto to you. So knock it off and appreciate what you have, love the pain and fancy the freedom because this is a fabulous blend that makes up your life
back to LA i go. Thank you to those who know this is for them.  ¶ 2:50 PM