Watching them watch me right now So much flies through my head today. It seems as if today was the day that it all comes together. I've spent my life forming hypotheses on people and actions, on the world as it turns, and people while they hate. Then today, I open up a book, read the known, researched, and proved versions of my ideas, and then put my head down to rest. The world does work like I thought it did. I see a ballet of naked people, and I am confirmed in my belief that the body is beautiful, awkward, and all at the same time just another thing. I see an art exhibit and although half of me says "childish sketches on paper" my other congitive side sees the hate, disrimination, forces of good and evil, and irony that the museum explains in little side captions. And while I have always said that we all see the world so tainted and individually, some things are just, real.


Example of real: Schemas. Ideas that all people fall into organized groups that we force them into. According to my psych book "they help us predict what others are like on the basis of relatively little information, because we tend to fit people into schemas even when we do not have much concrete evidence". This is why I want that boy in my English class to come out as gay, or why I don't get the girl who where's Abercrombie with a peace necklace. Everyone in my world get's put into catagories even when I tell them to their faces that they are people, just like everyone else. These schemas also account for the uncomfort I feel as I purchase a nice pair of shoes that I saw in a magazine. That's not something Kara would do, that doesn't fit her type. The worst part is, they cause so much discourse. What if someone doesn't belong in a group, how will they be treated? What if I don't fit into a group? Is that when people go "looking for themselves" or are they actually just morphing into a shape that fits the hole they want to be put into?

Real:conformity. Although it seems relatively straightforward whether a person opposes conformity or ignores it, I have decided it is ridiculous to do either. "Dont conform" we scream from the heights of our individuality, but don't we realise how incredibly imposible that is? To oppose conformity is to join another type of group, one that rages against the ways of the popular. Another type of conformity also runs parallel, that that occurs in groupthinks. This is when all come to one conclusion so quickly that the other side is never seen. Harsh judgements and immoral goals are often set because everyone caves in. This is America. Groupthink is known to "most likely occur when a popular of powerful leader is surrounded by people of lower status". Welcome to presidency George W., would you like to make a hasty proposal into war? Don't cave in country.

Also real: discrimination. This is the one I have the hardest time with, and today, it makes the least amount of sense. There is a mass movement of people who chant "peace, love and unity" around the world, yet they constantly discriminate against anyone who refuses to join in. They are anti-love to the world or republicans, discriminant against the religious, but continously condone any and all discrimination of personal choice. It seems imposible to love all, respect all, and project a theory that you want furthered at the same time. DO you have to squash others to promote your idea of world peace? Or will they change with equal respect and come to ultimate "enlightenment on their own"? Reading suggests that one way to reduce prejudice or discrimination is by "increasing contact between the target of stereotyping and the holder of the stereotype". If that's the case, i am definately in the right part of town.

This was basically just a rant that had to come out in the middle of my study time.To quote a friend "Back to my four wall existence". I love and miss you all. Have a thought-provoking day!  ¶ 5:32 PM