Gray hazy smoke covers the lenses of blue light that streams onto the crowd below which stays roudy and loud even while the man onstage pours out his heart into his art which although may not be my taste ought to be appreciated as expression and therefore i find myself antagonized and wondering so much what the chatter around me could be about that I direct my ears onto the words which sound "the OC is SO last year" and i remember that i am no longer on planet earth for i am in another world where vanity is fair and love is lost like the drink that is game for all who seek to expire something other than their intellect.

Still I able to loose myself in the deep bass guitar so that my body sways with the music and i catch a glimpse of dreadlocks ahead of me peaking out underneath a brown loose cap atop of a tall man and it makes me think why such attention was placed onto deliberate dilegent neglect so that each individual thread of hair might become a part of some collaborative nest which can never be untangeled and thus i see a distinct symbolism of unity in which all individuality is eternally lost however at the same time making this one individual stand out all the more because no one in southern california really has dreadlocks that mean something....

So i come home and sit on my computer and type in whatever terms i did not understand that the day threw at me in hopes of deleting one more possible future moment in which ignorance frames my face and embarrassment marks my words and what I find is riots in the streets of LA and on the porch of Kent State and pilgrimages through Poland that join hippies and catholics hand in hand with ceremonial flower picking and hymn singing all while stopping for inspiration masses and informal marijuana circles and I stumble upon the word for the mecca leader whom they call "Desiderata" and i fall in love with it all together and completely....

DESIDERATA
"Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quietly and clearly : and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.Avoid loud and agressive persons, their are vexations to the spirit.If you compare yourself with others , you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans .Keep interested in your own career , however humble ; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.But let this not blind you to what virtue there is ; many persons strive for high ideas; and everywhere life is full of heroism .Be yourself.Especially do not feign affection, neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all the aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.Take kindly the counsel of the years , gracefully surrendering the things of youth.Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.But do not distress yourself with imaginings.Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations , in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams , it is still a beautiful world.Be careful.Strive to be happy."
(Anonymous text from 1692 found in old St Paul's Church in Baltimore)