Sunday, August 28, 2005
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Aloha and welcome to the land of sun and honey (because milk makes me fart). For those of you who don't follow my life like a season of Laguna Beach, I have left and am off at college down in Los Angeles, California. Life here is...different, but only in good ways. My place of residence is shared with 3 other females, two of which spend everyother night somewhere else. I don't mind at all because it makes my room a little more peaceful but I can't help but worry about the girls. The mommy in my comes out here.
People are in an abundance. I think that college may be the one true taste of how the world should cooperate, or just operate in general. Every looking for someone to get to know and love, and all the rest in turn finding friendship if not just simple companionship. Each day I meet about 30 new people, get 10 new phone numbers and laugh at the awkwardness in silence shared by complete strangers.
I think I am able to take it all in because each day is a journey, and enough to take in by itself. TYhinking about spending 4 years in this party riden, fast-paced, smog filled, palm-tree land is more than overwhelming to me. But waking up everymorning to 80+ degrees and the smile of friends and strangers, knowing the day holds a beachtrip, a full breakfast, and the chance to meet 30 more beautiful people keeps me alright.
However, I have a hard time adjusting to my new role. I still have a hard time leaving the dorm at midnight because I keep thinking that someone wants me to stay in bed. Everytime I talk to a boy I wonder how safe I am being. And each morning when I decide what I want to do with no consideration about a gaurdian or parent, I feel a little underguided. But I guess that is what this time is for. Me. In the opening chapel mass last night, the priest talked about how college was a time to be who you really are, and love who everybody else is. With limitations, mandates, rules, and boundaries at everyturn, I could see how being my true self hasn't come about until around the dawning of today.
So now, I have to go to a convocation, breakfast, meeting, and then Venice or Manhattan beach. I dont know how to get to 2 out of the three but I guess that is half the adventure. I miss everyone at home who is no longer home, and even those who are. Call me anytime, all the time and I promise I will respond. Hope life is blessing you all. ¶ 9:13 AM
People are in an abundance. I think that college may be the one true taste of how the world should cooperate, or just operate in general. Every looking for someone to get to know and love, and all the rest in turn finding friendship if not just simple companionship. Each day I meet about 30 new people, get 10 new phone numbers and laugh at the awkwardness in silence shared by complete strangers.
I think I am able to take it all in because each day is a journey, and enough to take in by itself. TYhinking about spending 4 years in this party riden, fast-paced, smog filled, palm-tree land is more than overwhelming to me. But waking up everymorning to 80+ degrees and the smile of friends and strangers, knowing the day holds a beachtrip, a full breakfast, and the chance to meet 30 more beautiful people keeps me alright.
However, I have a hard time adjusting to my new role. I still have a hard time leaving the dorm at midnight because I keep thinking that someone wants me to stay in bed. Everytime I talk to a boy I wonder how safe I am being. And each morning when I decide what I want to do with no consideration about a gaurdian or parent, I feel a little underguided. But I guess that is what this time is for. Me. In the opening chapel mass last night, the priest talked about how college was a time to be who you really are, and love who everybody else is. With limitations, mandates, rules, and boundaries at everyturn, I could see how being my true self hasn't come about until around the dawning of today.
So now, I have to go to a convocation, breakfast, meeting, and then Venice or Manhattan beach. I dont know how to get to 2 out of the three but I guess that is half the adventure. I miss everyone at home who is no longer home, and even those who are. Call me anytime, all the time and I promise I will respond. Hope life is blessing you all. ¶ 9:13 AM
