Where is that? I am in love with my life. The most current conflict of mine is one of complete and utter insanity. I am neither in charge of the solutions nor the problem and cannot control or even effect either.
I see time; and I want two things.
1. Time to go as fastly as possible so that each event that is more exciting than the next in the future can occur rapidly and in succession. Of these events I look forward to my performance, my play, my graduation, my freedom, Alabama, Disney Land, my friends, my last summer, the beach, and everything holy
2. Time to stop so that never will I have to leave what i know and make a decision about what I do not. I don't look anxiously to creating a new social circle, having to "keep in touch" with those I love, needing to make vital independent decisions, and in general.....change.


Fortunately, I cannot in any capacity alter how fast or slow time occurs or what events turn out possitive or negative. All I can do is control the worry factory. God says the bird doesnt worry so why should you? Maybe because the bird didn't have to graduate high school....




Observation: The past 4 days have forced me (in a not so gentle manner) to decide what I value in life, what I want...really. So far, the petty seem to hold too much weight such as

• trees
• open and closed minds
• alternative music
• rain
• conflicting views
• beach
• Someone like me
• challenges
• vegetarian food besides salad
• dance
• art culture

They are hard to find in one place...God bless Portland

those

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