Eating about food Rolling along on a long country road, most often devoid of beauty due to normalcy but brought back to life thanks to the radiant heat of the sun and the blossoms it brings, the music blasted loudly into my ears but not a words was heard. Not only was I thinking, but i was thinking alot and then began thinking about my thinking when i came to it; I think wierd.
Thoughts pass through all of our minds at such a rapid rate that one could never pin but somehow each and every thought is seen as justified in its occurence. But today, my thoughts weren't. I actively realised that most times, I think about the moronic, the ironic, the useless, the helpless, and the unresolved. Though these thoughts can and might lead to some huge breakthrough in my life, this is rare...more than rare....nearly extinct...we will call these actual good and productive thoughts endangered. As these endangered thoughts sink in the pool of existence, being pushed under by the overpopulation of my (useless) pondering cells I wonder; what is important for me to decide today and what can wait?

The fatalist in me says nothing. I need to know now, today, anything and everything from what God thinks about me to what the world would be like without rules. That very same fatalist, however, struggles under the weight of those ideas because she knows that if today is all i have, why not make something of it. After all, if i die tomarrow, I'd find out precisely what God thinks without writting out a list of hypotheses.

And here I am. Left wondering what I should wonder...what do I need to understand to find resolve? I guess it all boils down to learning to classify my thought. To the right, we have entertainment and to my left....establishment of a life with real believed value. Where would wondering about the actual possibility of anti-matter go?



PS. I am officially going to further my formal education in Los Angeles California at Loyola Marymount University under the intended double major of psychology and dance. YAY! Looks like there will be more questions on the way!  ¶ 10:14 PM